Mika's Diary Entry #1 [Nov.30/24]

 dear diary, and internet. this is diary of things i truly just want to take out. and breathe for a moment. feel free to comment, make a lighthearted joke or vent your feelings. don't be a bully.

Time's gone by fast...

 I'm not a person with the sharpest memory, sure. But ever since COVID it feels like time's been passing by like a bullet train. Reminds me of how I've ever sinced dreamed of a diary when I was young. I wanted to share my experiences but the looming fear of people and especially family finding out was prominent. Even though I'm still quite young, I'm older. Yet, the fear is still there. Someone spilling out my secrets. Making fun of it. Telling an 8 hour lecture and getting the side-eye treatment everyday. 

 Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I know that they have good motives. But it's inevitable. I've never really felt good about realising my pain because it's always been made fun of. I hope it won't be the same here. I'm really just tired of the internet too y'know? Used to be a place for escape that's devolved into toxicity, like let me just go on with my life normally! I think it was a very good choice in my life rarely tyiping public things in the internet. Maybe I'm glad I'm not viral- no wait, I am glad I aren't viral. It could've been fun but seeing the internet now it would've been a spiral also.

 That reminds me, of a goal in my life to see the positives in the negatives. To be grateful that if something that I thought was really bad, turns out was a blessing in disguise for my future. 

well that's all for today. goodnight, morning, or whatever time is it at yours. i hope you have a good day, year, and life ahead of you.

- this is Mika, signing off.