I need to succeed.

I have to be perfect and be correct in every thing, so I won't be seen pathetic or dumb at all

I have to be a people pleaser, To make everyone happy and smile, to satisfy people 

I don't want people to see the real me, I don't wanna look disappointing or pathetic infront of them

You don't understand, none of you understand. I have to be successful I have to be perfect

I need to see my family proud of me, I don't wanna fail, I'm not a failure right? 

I finally understand my real weakness, It is to fail and be seen as pathetic and a failure

no, I hope no one sees me as a failure. No one should see me as a failure at all

and it should be the same, They should see me as positive not negative at all not negative never.

"You're so smart! I wish I was you" Shut up, Get out of here. You'll never understand

I never asked to be smart at all, I'm so pissed by my classmates relying on me and asking me

for answers, I'm mad that the teacher always chooses me to decide. I'm so tired of staying up

just to get straight A's. I guess this is how it is, I don't need sleep. I need good grades and success

I went to school, Not to be popular, or to make friends, or even to be known. I went there

to learn education and make my family proud so I can get a job.