Raychel's Input Blog entry #1

I'll be so honest with you right now. I don't have a clue what I am doing, blogging was only something I heard about from the Disney channel show called "a dog with a blog" it inspired me as a child to start a blog or to write something anything at all. But at the time I didn't have access to technology other than a tv to actually put a blog, story, poem or anything out there. When I did finally have a phone, then laptop I didn't actually know where I could go. Websites wanted me to pay to use them, others weren't interesting to use. Until this, TikTok introduced me to spacehey and I intend to make the most of it. Even if no one sees this at all. This is already feeling like a great outlet, as writing has always been for me. Weather typing my words out or scribbling my nonsense in a notebook, writing has frequently been a sense of peace for me. 

Anyway, I should probably get this thing started. Hello, my name is REDACTED. Here I prefer to go by Ray or Raychel. I'm nineteen, am a Leo, or a rooster depending on if you go by zodiacs or the Chinese zodiac. I had a creepypasta phase that still holds me in its clutches most of the time. My interests range from crazy yandere video games to more relaxed interests like reading or making my sibling's ears bleed when trying to sing. My days usually pass by in a blur of boredom or responsibility. Heading to my job, then home only to spend my free time budgeting bills, playing games, or scrolling through the internet while bed rotting. I usually have to force myself to find motivation as well as my inner happiness, something to just drive me out of bed to make a schedule for myself and just live. Theres so many things I have for that to be sincere. I could probably describe some of them by listing a late but still very true list of things I am thankful for.

I am thankful for;

1.  mom

• For always pushing me to make my own opinions, supporting me, being proud of me, giving me life, doing her best in the only way she knew how, working towards being a better person everyday

1.  Brother

• Being by my side through hell and back, believing in me, looking out for me when I was too scared to speak up for myself, being bold, confident, and unapologetically himself despite what anyone said about it

1. grandma

• acting as a parent for me when I needed it, helping everyone not just me through there struggles when they need it, acting even without being asked to help despite the pain it brings her, constantly pushing her boundaries to do what she believes is the right thing to do, 

1. Aunt whose name is like fast food

• For being a role model to me as a child, pursuing her dreams no matter what, going to college being supportive, firm believer in LGBTQ, 

All in all, I am being lazy for the moment. I have so much more I could as well as probably should add to this but it is getting late and I'm genuinely getting tired. Doesn't mean I won't come back to this. Eventually.... maybe. I know it's not thanksgiving anymore however it doesn't negate the fact that people around me mean the world to me and even if they don't know or always realize everything I see them do, and know of them as means a lot to me. They matter in this world. So many people matter in this world. Even if they can't see it. 

I should honestly stop though before I write everything here and you wont have a reason to come back then would you? 

11/29/24 11:54pm