NEW chapter in my LIFe 12/29

I WANT TO FEEL HAPPY BUT……

I constantly feel as though because i am 32 and am not married even tho I’ve been with my kids father for 9YEARS he still hasn’t done the mainly thing and made the initiative to say : hey babe i got the date picked 05/05/25 is our official marriage date and will we have our own spot by 2026 and i will find a legit job and be the male provider. Because that will then cause me to submit and be the women and wife i want to be. But because not i decided to live with my mom , oay rent and food here, go finish my bachelors to be a first grade teacher. Have an official job and some how some way get a mobile home for me and my kid. On my own. People always look at me like the black sheep or never doing the right thing or not good enough AND IM TIRED im not getting younger. SO i will graduate get my teachers license have a legit job and make it happen for my and my child POINT BLANK PERIOD. Then one day family and friends will respect me and be proud of me. I am dead broke and struggling. So i am trying to book face painting events save the money and buy the iMac m4 desktop in pink. So that i can continue my school program with a amazing computer and use it within my career. WISH ME LUCK. Im a lonely mom on a mission.