why cant i get a cool bf (・・ ) ?

i struggle with love and i want to love but there is literally NO ONE COOL ANYMORE!!
I just want a bf to hug and love to the fullest but that will not like NOT happen with my body im to big. i cant tell if i look more like super sonico or super pochaco or even inbwetween!! im almost like super sonicos build but my stomach is a bit bigger and wider and by thighs are bigger D:
THIS HAS GONE WAY OFF TRACK FROM GETTING A BF.. I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO MATCH PFPS WITH AND SPEAK TO ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING💔💔

i just want true love is it that hard with my bad luck :c