Hyperseuxal rant

Not good at words but i HATE when ppl say “mental health matters!” But when i say im hypersexual i get put down ppl telling me im disgusting like i dont know that already?!?! Hypersexual is like a prison filled with guilt and disgust when THOSE thoughts finally pass. 

I try my hardest to just keep it under control but its under my skin , i just want to rip it off but i cant. Im so fucked.