summer solstice

i miss when that burn on my nose was still fresh

or when i was more accustomed to feeling you on my flesh

everytime i eat from that pizza place, i think of me curled up on your chest

and then my eyes begin to fill up with that painful mist.

it was the first and only time i'd gotten to stay over.

i slept in your tshirt and pajama pants. i felt like i could have loved you forever

i know my feelings are wrong but don't they know i can't help it?

i want to hear an "i love you" just one last time.

sometimes i wonder if i'm not upset that things ended but rather how it ended

i wonder if it was ever worth it and if i would go back in time at any given opportunity

to scream and beg my past self as a premonition not to do it, don't go for him, keep things casual.

but you got what you wanted now.