What does it mean to be strong…?

For the past year I have been nothing but angry and sad. And with me and my girlfriend breaking up a couple months ago made it even worse for me. I feel like I’ve been fueled by nothing but rage and anger. Like at any second I’ll snap and end up bashing someone’s face into a locker. Nobody respects me whether that be at school or at home. I get made fun of day in and day out even just for being fucking happy. Ive been laughed at for laughing and having a good time with my friends. People have come up to me and said awful things about me and my friends. People even made fun of me for having the newest phone. I’ve even been made fun of for not wanting to have sex or being openly “romantic” with my ex girlfriend. I’ve been called gay, a faggot, a fat pig, I’m fucking sick and tired of it… I’ve been going to the gym and I know it’s cringey and cheesy but I want to be like Son Goku and Ippo Makunouchi. I look up to them… they are my hero’s. I watch them and I see everyone respects them, They are my hero’s, I watch them fight and be themselves everyday. Then when I’m myself I’m a pathetic loser who gets clowned on. I want to ask Goku and Ippo how it feels to be so strong, how it feels to be so respected. I want to be strong like them, I want to train to be as strong and as respected like them…. I want to be strong…