Platonic love concurs all

 I tend to believe that a love that is true means all you know is that you love them. The institution of marriage is still important to people today, but I cant seem to understand why. Besides the human value of tradition. I can appreciate the admiration for a beautiful ceremony though. How come you have to be bound to someone for your relationship to be complete. Somehow, no one expects anything from platonic love. Most believe that if two people have been in a relationship for a number of years, the man should propose to her; quote-unquote (put a ring on her finger!). I'm afraid I may execute my own finger to with the intention to crush a future someone's anticipation to place a ring on it.  You can love someone entirely without ever needing to marry them. Marriage does not change the love of two people. Why do we expect so much of each other? I wonder if someone could ever love me without having sex with me. Can a persons affectionate touch be romantic without being filled with lust? I don't write from experience of romance so I'm not sure. 

I used to cast spells hoping for someone to love me. Perhaps I've been looking at true love the wrong way. I have so many true loves, none of them romantic, but I've realized that platonic love is so much more valuable. What event has to happen for someone to transform into an emotionally soulful person? A person could either change or leave you. Platonic loves are complicated but also incredibly simple; in the way which you love one another without fear. With a best friend you love, you're not afraid to talk to them, hug them, or be vulnerable. 

 A few months back, I had a crush that started to fester. Like a pesty bedsore on an elderly person. He was funny, blonde & blue eyed, mildly attractive, and excruciatingly boring. I could not connect with him no matter how hard I tried. Now that I'm reflecting, I think I expected too much from him. As if he could possibly form a personality over our little conversations, where I was mainly speaking and he sat there unresponsive. We argue with each other like an old married couple (pretty ironic considering how I stand on marriage). He blames me for everything, when he's done everything and I've done next to nothing. Today I've decided to stop trying, it's pointless and a waste of energy in every way. I for one think he is a vexation. Nothing about him is super fantastical anyways. 

I finally say to him: Vous etes un petit homme!