sorry Will

i genuienly feel sorry for people who consider me their friend, i'm not any good. Every time i think i'm having a fun time with my friends i always find a way to ruin it with my stupid mood, just yesterday and today i ruined the only day my friend had off to play with the gc because my brain decided to make me sad for no reason, so i ended up staying silent the whole time on call and when i left call and the game we were playing my friend literally had to check on me thinking his jokes made me upset. No Will, your jokes didn't upset me, it was just my stupid mind deciding making my depressive episode worse at that precise moment was an amazing idea.

I don't know why i even bother, it's an online friendship i doubt it's going to last long, i wish it does last long but i've had other friends online and it never lasts.