vol 1

25.11.2024

dont mind the spelling mistakes, im tired

took a long time for me to finally start writing again. but its hard to keep my feelings and thoughts to myself (most of the time).

nothing has been happening these days. nothing! i started to feel apathy long time ago. i still didnt recover from that. everything seems gray. i cant have fun from the things i used to have fun from. maybe its because of that i have no point to live the future. sometimes i look back and see how far ive come only to see the unpredictable, scary future in front of me. 

i got sick again, caughing and stuff. i dont know 

a few weeks ago me and asia watched aku no hana. it was on my watch list for a long time and im so happy that i finally watched it. im mesmerized. it was so pretty. ive never related to something this much before. especially the double suicide scene. it was so touching . 

zey didnt come to school today. i cant have fun at school without her