my take on religion?

this after the kid at the back fanart is crazy ☠️☠️☠️ im prolly gonna keep this shtuff up as like a timecapsule for when im. older and i look back to what i was up to in the past

I need to like rant and write down my ideas so like yea im putting it here (also i say "like" a lot I do it subconsciously bc ig it makes what i say less confrontational n more casual yknow,, but it js makes me feel more comfortable with what i say so like yeah)

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also ths might be controversial esp for those who do believe in some sort of religion and im not an expert like, im referring to major religions and religions i've heard about, so im not trying to undermine any other religions that may be an exception. I did used to be christian and went to a religious school, so I do have some interactions with religion irl. I also went to Buddist temples and have buddist friends. i dont have religious trauma though, i found most of the religious people/environments i was in was very welcoming and nice. But thats not going to stop me from questioning religions. ALSO IM NOT TRYNA ACT LIKE THS SOME NEW PROFOUND THOUGHT. in fact what triggerd ths word vomit rant was a tiktok video i saw and i ws like damn this is waht ive been saying!!!!! ya

Actual shtuff:

I think religion is a way to cope, which isn't necessarily a bad thing i guess, like it gives people hope (which is also why i kind of wished i was religious, i mean im also scared of death but i don't have any comforting thought of an afterlife or god to turn to when i have an existential crisis like that). But also I think it kinda strips humans of their individuality and as free thinkers. 

Humans want to be different and seperate from animals when were all made of organic tangible material and will die and there will be an end to our consciousness. And humans, since they are more conscious and intelligent ig, can’t cope with the thought of being dead and done and unimportant as they go down in history and are forgotten. so they make a meaning for themselves to avoid feeling despair and fear from having to die. i mean really. like imagine taking all your morals from a book. like imagine you can't use your brain to think about whats moral and whats not, and you need someone else to tell you or you don't know what to do. I mean, i think a lot of modern religious ppl also don't follow their scriptures exactly cuz they KNOW that parts of it (and sometimes a majority of it) has very immoral concepts, but they choose to still believe by cherry picking the good parts. humans just like to conform to something, to have structure in their lives, to know what happens after death, because they cant cope with uncertainty. like i feel like its kinda sus how like every major religion i've heard about has some kind of an afterlife, and following that religion and its rules will send you to the good version instead of the bad version of that afterlife (heaven and hell,etc.). like it forces you to kind of value life as it is right now despite there being an afterlife so people don't just kill themselves to gain access to a better place (like heaven, or you get reincarnated with less karma in your life). like dude its just sus. also literally like religious depictions of gods are usually based on the location their in, yknow what i mean? like christianity, with a western background, depicts its prophets and god with like eurocentric features, and like asian religions usually depicts its gods with asian feautures. Maybe its js their artstyle or their only way of making sense of gods/entities as something similar to themselves. 

also since im kind of like a feminist, i saw ths person saying "man created god because he could not accept that women create life" and like C: also literally religion always seem to frame women as seductive and deceptive and shit and like they be saying "focus brothers!!!" like. like ive been to a christian school, ive gone to church, ive read parts of the bible, i was protestant christian for part of my life, and it always felt like the bible was written for men. like, it literally Eve was made as an accessory to adam. like fym u took out a rib from adam to make a counterpart that is apparently seductive and weaker (in physical and psychological terms since eve was supposedly the one who like ate the fruit first and then manipulated adam to eat it too which sounds. kind of stupid to me) to entertain and keep him company. and like majority of the prophets are male. but i also want to note that i do think the bible was probably mistranslated and manipulated multiple times so maybe a lot of things are misunderstood and stuff

anyways im kind of js writign this for myself cuz it lets me think out my ideas. so it might not make sense and stuff and its not really sophisticated writing. but also if ppl do see this i would like outside opinions yknow