I/Me/Misery Monolouge Σ(っ °Д °;)っ

WAIT! Before you read, this has a lot of religious themes and is relating to a little bit of nonbinary angst I've been having lately so it will be cringe and emotional. okay have fun.

Is it the fault of mine for not knowing this loving god thou speak of? Thy speak of his divinity and boundless love and yet I see but the cruelness of a tyrant. How cruel a creator to make a man walk the world in a body that is not his own. To make a man hide his heart for the fear of persecution, death. To outcast a man for the manner he presents or cannot change. How cruel to let the disciples that claim to be His, that are meant to love all, have such a sharpness of tongue and spirit for the Other. How shall thou find me when They grab hold of me? They will discover me as they forced me to be, carved -if imperfectly- into my own image. They shall sink their knife edged teeth into me as a wolf into a lamb. Thy may find me pale faced and cold, or thou may see the last bit of life in my eyes, feel my warmth and see my colour as it is stolen off by His devoted people. I wonder if thine sour taste for all I am will last when you see what they have done? Will thou say it for the best? How loving thy god.