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I would like to take this opportunity to introduce myself. I am Jardy or Jared, a trans boy who has not yet come out as trans. Previously, I was known by one of the following names: Alex, Alexa, Alexita, or Alexandra between 2020 and 2022. However, I do not respond to those names currently. I am pansexual and demisexual.
He/him/them – El
Please note that Spanish does not have neutral pronouns.
I have been diagnosed with ADHD, depression, memory loss, attachment issues, masochistic, and anxiety.
I did not have the opportunity to experience typical childhood development, and I continue to face challenges associated with that.
I engage in childish behaviors and activities to facilitate healing of this aspect of myself. I acknowledge that I am somewhat immature. I had to mature rapidly, and I tend to become angry or emotional, which can result in expressing regret or apology. It is advisable to avoid causing me anger. I have suffered bullying since I was very young. I dislike being the subject of ridicule. I am uncomfortable with being proven wrong. I am particularly averse to being deceived and not being spoken to with the truth.
In some areas of my left arm, I have sustained numerous lacerations, and I experience intermittent relapses. I am a consumer, though not of illicit substances. Instead, I ingest a combination of medication and Sprite, which has a detrimental impact on my mental health and anxiety. I was subjected to unwanted physical contact from a young age. This included instances of my cousin, schoolmates, and certain family members touching my body, knees, thighs, chest, waist, and neck.
I am not adept at navigating romantic relationships. I tend to be submissive and reluctant to seek assistance. I become overly attached and sometimes become fixated on a particular individual.
I am 16 years of age, my birthday is October 11th, my zodiac sign is Libra, and my animal in the Chinese calendar is the rat. I tend to experience high levels of emotional distress, oscillating between excessive sadness and a lack of emotional response. I find myself distancing myself from reality with surprising rapidity. I engage in self-harm, specifically hitting myself in front of the mirror, which I associate with a dislike of my appearance. I hate my mother, I hate my father, I have tried to end my life more than 4-5 times, I watched explicit bloody content while I was cut my arm to feel some emotion [don't worry I've stopped] I was hypersexual since I was groomed when I was younger between 2020 and 2021, but I've stopped and I don't feel any feeling of having sex or anything like that I have no interest in that [Furthermore, it disgusts me but it doesn't disgust me. I hate that they talk about physical appearances and compare bodies and use men and women as objects. Everyone deserves respect and doesn't deserve to be involved in sexual matters. And if it's because of trauma, since I heard my male classmates talking about my body and laughing because I was virgin, they laughed at everything about me]
My preferred games include Evade, Nico's Nextbots, Regretevator, Item Alusium, Obby (Roblox), Minecraft, Undertale and ゆめにっき
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