There's too many people around in my life

There's too many people around in my life; Too many families with lots of kids and another baby on the way. I was subjected to a fate worst than death: being born in a large family. Have you seen how many cousins, aunts, and uncles I had to meet in my earlier years? even today I still see some unfamiliar faces and feel an ounce of dread when I see a pregnant person. It makes me go "oh my god we already have so many people in our family we don't need another new one we have to worry about" in my head.

There's a very good reason why I'm a misanthrope.

Sometimes, I wonder what those rich white people feel like when they say they only have one cousin. That's a dream of mines alongside just being born with no family at all (not even any parents): imagine all of the names I could remember easier just because there's less names? I wouldn't have to attend petty and annoying birthday parties of my younger family members, it'd be way easier to actually get to know all of my family members if it was this small too.

But being born without any family is ideal too; sadly it's not possible because you have to have a MOM to give you life in the first place. But if I was just created in a lab with no DNA that could possibly trace back to anybody, that's fine too.

I wouldn't be forced to visit, see or like anybody because "family" and I can be around the people I'd actually want to see (Though most of the friends I had were shitty aswell, so not really). It's easy to drop the shitty people of your life if they were friends; It's a lot harder to drop the shitty people of your life if they are your family.

All family topics aside: I'm excited for the next bubonic plague to happen, or whatever scrubs away most, or ideally all of the population. Since 'rona wasn't a strong enough disease back in 2020.