I like somebody

Yes, I do, but I struggle to ignore these feelings, so I'm deciding to express them here.

Quick disclaimer, if you know or find out who I'm referring to if you know me irl, get out unless you're keeping it a secret.

I've recently gotten close with this person, we've known each other for a good while now but only considered each other as mutual with similar friends, because we never agreed on anything nor have we had anything in common, it's always just me and them looking at each other and not talking.

Eventually, we started becoming friends these past weeks, and I'm not complaining, but I'm still a bit confused about why I have feelings like this.

Honestly no reason for me to have feelings for them since I know it'll never happen, so what am I trying to get out from these stupid feelings?? I'm so annoyed by myself.

they have a religious family or parents, and they also would never date the same gender, they wanna continue their bloodline, they explained to me those reasons why but I'm not planning to elaborate them.

I just want to lose these feelings soon bc they might do something mean towards me but then I start crying (I don't want that happening) Just a quick disclaimer: if you know me in real life and can identify who I'm referring to, please leave unless you intend to keep it a secret.Just a quick disclaimer: if you know me in real life and can identify who I'm referring to, please leave unless you intend to keep it a secret.

i like them a lot, but I don't wanna deal with the consequences.

i need to lose these feelings, even if it hurts