i hate being disabled but my fish make it better

its been sprinkling rain like all day and im SO fucking tired. a ridiculous amount of tired honestly. none of yall reading this know this yet but im on pain meds in order to like, not feel like my body is ripping itself apart and ive already taken 1 out of the 2 i have per day. it wore off like multiple hours ago and i know ill need the second one to sleep

what yall also dont know is that i have a 100 gallon corydora pond in my house. its not a rich person thing like a custom in ground pool with fancy tropical freshwater fish and everything. im broke, but like some ppl are crazy cat ladies, i am a crazy fish enby. a number of years ago i got a 100 gallon stock pond and set it up like one would a 100 gallon fish tank and then put some corydoras in. it's my passion project and I'm rambling, but anyways. Not ONE but TWO of my emerald corydoras are pregnant!! i love seeing the babies so im literally so excited. one of them looks about ready to lay her eggs any second now. I don't know how i missed her, she must have been hiding in the plants every time i checked the pond. I finally caught a glimpse of both of them while they were feeding. my babies make the pain worth it, honestly.

There's a lot of other stuff going on in my life like unwanted chesticle growth bc my drs wont let me have bc without estrogen, pain flare up from getting taken off 4 of my meds at once, being sick from my new infusion (remicade is supposedly supper effective tho so thats good), etcereta but i wont talk abt it too much, just touch on that. don't expect all venting, i hope i can post some good stuff as it happens here too. Using it as kinda a public diary

thanks for listening, love yall xoxo!! -yuki

Fish tax:


[top view of one pregnant adult and one juvenile corydora on sand, eating the same algae wafer]