June/July of 2024

There's a lot of things I need to update. I never shared the full story of what happened in my last blogs, so I'm going to explain that today. On June 11th, I met this guy, I'm going to use his initial, Z. Me and him became really close friends fairly quickly. We started flirting, he would show up and my window and he would also tell me sensual things. I opened up a lot to him about my life and SA trauma, and he shared some of his life problems. One day, I went to our friends apartment with him when he told me that our friends weren't going to be there and it would be just us. I didn't think much of it, but when we arrived, we started play fighting like we usually did. We got face to face and started doing the devils tango lol. Afterwards, he told me that if I told anyone he'd hit me, and that if anyone found out, I'd get murdered, so I was living in fear over a stupid lie. Later on, I found out that his gf was pregnant (he told me they were breaking up) and he ghosted me. A few weeks later his girlfriend followed me on insta and told me about the situation. She sent me screenshots of hers and Z's messages, and he was basically saying that I got him high and drunk (which was not at all true) and said that I raped him. Which was actually fucking crazy. I told her everything that happened in detail, and left it at that. I found out that Z had told one of our mutual friends that we had fucked, so he spread it around, but threatened me if I did. Hypocritical ass. Anyways, people heard allegations and I denied all of them, but I was still being threatened that I was going to get jumped. Never trust no damn man, he was also 18 and 6'4, for reference I'm 5'2 and 16, ain't no way I would have done something, I'd get crushed in a heartbeat. Man fuck these hoes smh.