Getting Older

Getting older is realizing that I need to make friends through my interests instead of trying to introduce my current friends to my interests. I'm really just tired of hearing "ugh" and eyes rolling every single time I mention something I'm interested in just because they're not also interested in it.

I don't do that to them even if their interests aren't my own. I don't deserve to have that done to me.

Even my own supposedly alternative friends and family try to tell my to tone myself down in some way because my interests are "weird" to them.

How can you sit here and claim to be alternative and accepting but won't go outside the house with me if I wear my big black platform boots with buckles because it's "not casual" and "people won't take us seriously"?

And I'm sick of hearing "ugh I just don't like things where I can't understand what they're saying" in response to me listening to music or watching TV in a language other than English. From people who listen to screamo, hard rock, and mumble rap.

Why am I always watering myself down to make other people feel more comfortable and why do they treat me like that?

I've done nothing but compliment and hype up the stuff they like just simply because they like it, why don't I get that in return from them?

Whatever.

I'll probably remake this journal entry at a later date whenever I have the energy to learn how to make it aesthetically pleasing.