I hate my weekly routine

I hate my weekly routine, so much. During the work week I have Wednesday off, but every other day I’m at collage all day and I can’t get back until past 5pm. So I’m at collage from 8:50-4:10 and then I have to take the bus home. Then by the time I get home I have no motivation to do anything, but because I’m so loaded with homework I have to give up my Wednesday to do it. 

And you may ask, what about weekends? Yeah well usually I’m at my dads for those, so it doesn’t let me get any chores at my mums place and I want to help out at hers because her and my step dad are always so busy, but i cant because I need to concentrate on doing homework and revision. AND I CAN BEARLY JUST ABOUT DO THAT!

I’m also looking for a job so once i get a job, i wont even be able to have weekends for myself. I know this all sounds kinda dramatic but I hate it. It’s so isolateing for me. The only social interaction I actually get from people my age is in business studies and fine art. Film studies i have no friends and hate everyone. I also have DND on a Tuesday afternoon which is nice and all.

So all together, it’s 9 hours a week i spend socialising with peers. I don’t have a partner i can message in my spare time, I barely talk to anyone when im outside of collage because of this social inability i have to do so. And soon my only chance of being able to hang out with someone outside of collage school hours will be taken away once i have a job. 

It just sucks and no one I say this to seems to understand. I bring it up to my parents and they say stuff like “well why dont you invite some of your old friends over” because i haven’t spoken to my old friends from secondary school in over a year, and it would be rly fucking awkward. We have completely different lives now. Well that’s what my mum would say, my dad would just say “well sometimes we just need to make sacrifices to be successful” i get that but i need people my age, who act my age, to be friends with and hang with.

THEY JUST DONT GET IT