hey?? mental health??

BIG VENT

i'm sorry if i wasn't active here, i just didn't felt like being active tbh, my mental health is killing me sometimes, my experience on SpaceHey has always been quite wierd tbh anyway, socializing here IS FUCKING DIFFICULT, i've made like COUNTLESS and i mean countless blogs about it so it's no news pplz r talking bout it too so i ain't gonna add shit, either way i gotta admit the drama kinda fuckin ruined my experience, when i come to SpaceHey it just doesn't feel the same, i also gotta bring up that i'm growing tf up n these place is full of minors n me being the grown ass guy that i am i OBVIOUSLY can't talk to teens bellow 18 anymore as i'm not one anymore :/, it really hits hard honestly but i'm a full grown ass adult (kinda), so yeah and honestly adults r no offense kinda boring as i'm mentally 16, i joke about it all the time but honestly i have hyperfixations and shit, and honestly i like that in myself, anyway back to the subject, i'm no longer a kid and since i ain't here for cupcakes i've been watching who i interact with more n more...

i'm doing a bit better, i'm able to open up more and more about things that happened in life, weither i wronged or was wronged, everyday is a fight to be the best version of myself, i feel hopeful i've been doing terrible these last few days but i gotta admit november so far was pretty good.

I feel pretty good about being single i think i'm not made for having a girl/boyfriend, which both i tried, i'm good on my own, i like being on my own however i would love to fit somewhere in live, weither it's peoples/place i wanna find where i belong it's been my n°1 issue, now i know who i amwho i wanna be i just need somewhere to go in life, find a life that suits me best

from now on i'll blog more like this, it feels nice, i get a piece of my mind off my concience.

I'm not going to therapy, those who just tell me to can suck my dick, they just don't care and use that as an excuse for me to shut the fuck up as if therapy is magically gonna do wonders, i'm not denying i need it n that therapy is good but i have my fuckin reasons thanks!

i have a meeting in two days with peoples that are gonna help me with my situation as i'm jobless and quite frankly am in a shit life situation.

Anyways i am HEAVILY into Sonic the hedgehog lately it's CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

i really can't wait for the movie, i also buyed myself a Shadow plushie, shit was lit, i also went in an art event where i painted the cheers MCR album on a vinyl, fuckin sick \m/

I also still miss skatebaording... but iain't giving up on it just cuz i'm broke

i've been watching Skate the infinity thanks to my deer online friend (i fucking love her she's so nice), that show is amazing, pretty gay tho lmao some guy characters legit treat each others with so much affection almost like they're together but honestly i'm all for it, it's cool or/and funny (especially Adam n Snow, i kinda wanna ship them for the lols)

been laying off TWD tho tbh, i eneed to get back to Metalocalypse n Daria tho tbh

every day is almost the same, super slow yet it goes so fast...