damn

heyyyy sorry for not having written in a while, I was in the hospital because they have to operate on me for a birth condition, anyway. Do you remember the guy I told you I liked and that I thought he liked me too? Well, he was just using me to boost his ego, he never loved me, it's fucked up because I was planning to give him some letters or gifts that I made with my own Hands, it always happens to me, I give everything for someone and that person only ends up using me and then abandoning me after getting what they wanted, why? I'm not good enough for them, I'm not pretty enough? I'm not nice enough, normal? Damn it's fucked, I think I'm not made for someone to love me, I'm made for love but not for someone to genuinely love me? Someone told me that I have a huge heart full of love to give but not made to receive love, I guess it's true haha