2024 has been a really terrible year... :(

tw // loss of a loved one

Yes, you heard it right, it was terrible.

It all started going smoothly with my Nanny going into remission from her cancer, but once February came (after my birthday), things started going downhill.

There was huge drama in the Royale High community from two influencers getting their badges falsely removed. This made me so angry that I took a hiatus from Royale High until May, with the release of the art class. Royale High did reinstate the badges of the said influencers. I felt like Royale High is trying their best to keep updates coming. Despite constant on-and off drama over the community and the toys, I did enjoy the Falling Leaves Festival in October, and now I wait for the Gifting Advent in December!

And next... the worst part of the year was... my Nanny.

It started on June 1st, when Mom got a call from Poppy that Nanny was in the ICU and she had almost died on the ambulance, due to her high CO2 level at 100%. I was very worried and scared. I went to see her that evening, and her CO2 level dropped to 50%. It was so heartbreaking to see her suffering like this. Later, she was moved into the oncology unit and she was doing much better. I did visit her in the hospital just about every day until she came home and was put in in-home hospice care. Still, it was very heartbreaking to see her on her deathbed, all confused and weak. June 18, 2024: the day my life was turned upside down. I remember sitting on her walker in the dining room and she looked at me and smiled and said "Hi". I also remember me, my sister, Poppy, and her all holding hands together and shouting "Hooray!". I will forever cherish these moments. My sister and I left as soon as the hospice nurse arrived. She later had a seizure, which sent her to the hospice facility and later went into cardiac arrest. She passed away at 4:45 PM EDT with her husband, daughter (my mom), and niece right by her side. Mom came home and told me the news. Although I was very heartbroken that she wasn't physically here anymore, I was relieved that she went home with the Lord, where she is no longer suffering and is cancer-free. It has been exactly 5 months since her passing and I still miss her very much. I sometimes shed tears remembering her, but she will always have a place in my heart.

RIP Mary Alice Kisner

January 3, 1945 - June 18, 2024

And then... another BIG downfall in my mental health...

Trump "winning" the election (he actually cheated, thanks to the elongated muskrat). It has put me in a huge anxiety attack. I couldn't sleep AT ALL that night, knowing that my rights as a woman will be taken away in January from Project 2025, as well as my ADHD medicine making my anxiety attacks a little worse, due to anxiety being one of the side effects. I do not wish to get off of it since it is helping me with my ADHD. Just praying that everything gets better in 2025, despite Project 2025... May God be with us all.