(Yet another) Life Update (I guess more of a vent)

High school. Everyone says they're your glory years, but if that was really true, what happened with the sophomore slumps? 

Don't get me wrong, I like school, but some days feel so repetitive. It's like a clock, going in the same direction, over and over. All I do is listen to music and learn nothing. When I'm not listening to music, I'm thinking about listening to music.

I'm not very interesting. 

Right now there's a dull ache in my leg, throbbing almost. Everything just feels so bleak right now. 

I can't tell if the depression is coming back or I'm just being a whiny bitch.

I found out I have a Vitamin B12 deficiency, so that's fun. I don't really know how to go about telling my mom though, but I don't think it's fatal, so I'm fine for now. 

There's a static piercing my eardrums, but nobody seems to be listening. I don't know. I'm exhausted. 

Sometimes I just wanna be invisible, like a disappearing boy. I just wanna forget about all of my social and academic responsibilities and just sleep it all away.

I love my friends, and it's not them. It's me. I just- it's too much social interaction. I don't know. 

I'm out,

           -pissboy