5 Years Sober!!

Hey!! I can not believe that I am about to celebrate 5 years clean and sober in less than 4 hours! It is truly a miracle! I was given the gift of desperation! In December of 2015, I was living in a hotel room in one of the worst parts of Louisville, KY. All my possessions were in a storage unit. I had two sons and didn't have custody of either. I messaged my dad on Christmas to wish him a Merry Christmas; he had cut me of financially years ago, only to get the response that he doesn't want to speak to me until I go help. I had been to treatment many times before. This time, however something was different. The alcohol and drugs were no longer working, I was partaking in activities I would have never done sober. I told my dad that day that I wanted help. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. He sent me a list of treatment centers. The addict in me had to get a few more to get out before I could commit. After all, New Year was approaching. I did get ahold of a place, in London, KY. They didn't have a bed till the first week February. I found out at that time that I no longer had insurance. A friend of mine gave me a number to a guy that took care of medicaid, I called him and he hooked my medicaid up immediately. On February 6th 2016, my dad drove me to this place and dropped me off. He had tears in his eyes. This is the only time I recall ever seeing him cry. He said, "this is the first time she wanted this on her own." I tried to detox with no medication, on February 9th, I started a suboxone taper. In 7 days I was done, February 16th 2016 was the first time in years I was completely free from all mood and mind altering substances. After my 30 day detox, I found myself in Bowling Green, KY at a long term treatment, graduated there after 7 months, met the man of my dreams, moved in with him, got my youngest son back from my dad and ended up pregnant with a little girl who is about to turn 3 next month. In the mist of all that, I got my oldest son back, who at the time was 15 and hadn't been in my life since he was 2! He just turned 18 in August. I am getting married this October. I could go on and on about the blessings I have received in my life since choosing sobriety. Everyday sober is a gift! I couldn't have done this without the gift of desperation, a 12 Step program, great sponsorship, and most importantly, a God beyond my understanding. If you are struggling with addiction, know you are not alone, you are loved, and you can find sobriety too!