Life Sucks!

Most people grow up with beautiful connections with themselves and the people around them, their life sucks. I have never had a true connection with anyone, ever, and that makes me wonder; will anyone ever love me? I don't know if it's a stupid question, or if it has an answer, maybe one day someone will pretend to love me, and I’ll be so stupid that I'll believe it. Maybe the real question is; will I ever love anyone? I don't know if I've ever loved someone, maybe when I was a child I clung to everyone, but is that what love means? Anyway, it's not my style. I keep thinking about what will happen if I go out into the world once and for all, because I’ll have to do it, in less than a few months, I have to go out into the world. Dear diary, I want you to teach me how to be normal, because life sucks. 

Sincerely: It’s none of your damn business, leave me alone. -Matt