UUUURGH, WHYYYYYY.

• I freaking always procrastinate, and now I'm weeks behind on almost all my classes. I know I can do the work, its easy, but I just don't have the motivation anymore. I'm a extended sophomore (failed half of my classes last semester, my mother died so...yeah.) and everyone back home is cheering me on, because all my cousins that went to college, they dropped out within their first / second year.  

• I am already taking medication to help is supposed to help with ADHD and even then, i just don't feel like "OMG, I'M SO FOCUSED ON THIS", which a lot of people with ADHD said they experience. I'm also autistic so there's that. IDK, I know I can do the work, It's just sitting down and doing it. I really want to finish college, but i just don't have the motivation anymore. Maybe its just winter coming in, you know, the winter depression, LOL. 

anyways, heres a little blog about my life rn.