𝗜 𝗚𝗜𝗩𝗘 𝗨𝗣

Ok, bye. I'm giving up on school. Call it ADHD, call it habit, call it laziness, I don't care. I can't do it no matter what. I had a week to finish my homework and I didn't do it. Again, again, again. I tried really hard. I wanted to do it so much, but no matter how hard I pushed myself, how I broke, how I burned, how I died, I didn't even start. I begged myself I didn't want to hang out on the phone but it still didn't happen. Years will pass and I think I will never do such tasks. I will find myself on a ship with Somali pirates to earn money and that's the best case scenario, which is pathetic!! I completely ignore advice and reprimands now because I have tried every way you can think of. I have watched every video, read every book, tried to get support, I could have worked instead of doing these things, now I know all about behavioral psychology but still, I haven't done anything with my life. I wish I could just get up and do simple tasks. Why is it so hard, why does nothing work? I just can't do it and I probably won't do it anymore. There's nothing else I can do except be bilingual. Will this give me a life?