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How Deactivating My Twitter/X Account Saved My Life.

I never knew how bad being chronically online was until it got to my brain and made me do the most embarrassing shit known to man. I'm telling you now that I've probably done everything on that app ever since I was 14 years old and you will never know how horrible it was until you've experienced it yourself. I was a stan account for a K-pop group, had a private account to vent out my feelings, became a popular stan account for a famous video game and even went as far as to creating a roleplay account for an otome game... I even fell in love on the internet. JESUS CHRIST IT WAS BAD.

The only time I had enough of that app was when I realized how braindead everyone was on that app and how biased their opinions were... it felt as if high school had their own app. I may be generalizing over here but that's what I can see. They don't have any sympathy nor do they want to listen to both sides whenever some kind of "beef" is happening over there and lastly, they really can't take any kind of criticism even though they know damn well it is true.

I do have to admit that at some point, I became someone I wasn't proud of all because I wanted to fit in. I hated myself, and I had to put up a persona for so long and if I didn't act that way, no one will like me, and they did. I took off that mask for a second, and then it all came crumbling down like a stack of Legos idk. It came to a point where I thought everyone hated me and I decided to do something that eventually turned me into their "villain." How badly they perceived me over a simple mistake that could be solved in a matter of time, I began to overthink every single little thing and I began hating myself to the point where I felt like I wanted to just disappear forever.


That was until I deactivated.


Honestly, it was the most easiest process ever since I've done it multiple times over my lifetime in Twitter. After deactivating, it felt like everything has been lifted off of my shoulders and I felt some sense of clarity with myself. I can't believe it for myself either but as a not-so firm believer of Christ, it felt as if he was there with me after a few weeks of deactivating, even my evil eye bracelet broke and I heard it was a sign that there was no more evil surrounding me I think?? But either way, I began to heal and I felt happier than before.

I still have some thoughts going around in my mind about what could've happened if I didn't do those stuff on Twitter but thank GOD I made those decisions that night because the people in there are toxic as they can get and I never want to go back to that hellhole ever again.


(Or maybe I still secretly use Twitter but I'm not exposing myself :P -Bough)


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𝖇𝖚𝖓𝖓𝖞‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚.

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the best thing i think ive ever done was me never getting addicted to twitter. BUT i am addicted to like idk tiktok. So i feel like that might be just as bad >///<


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爪卂ㄒ

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everyone is better off deleting or severly limiting instagram/tiktok/facebook/twitter/bluesky. its all poison. every single one of those apps, if there arent more


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Ba nooo, to nawet tu na SpaceHey'u jest kwas.

by bartlo; ; Report

I mean spacehey is a shithole often, but at least it does not have the brain rotting auto-scroll AI created feeds to get you addicted

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Th3s4US

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Honestly i really hope that, if you still use twitter, you use it only for reading the drama and the fights. Because god knows you suffered a lot in that place.


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Antonela 。𖦹°‧

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This is so real, I used to be active there for like 3 months ig (in 2021-2022), exactly in kpop area, and I really didn't noticed how toxic my mutuals were. I really liked them but I think it was not the same in return. I used it to vent myself, especially the anger I had inside of me in that time, so I found normal all of their attitudes. I quit because everyone started deactivating and I didn't find sense being there. Now it's a lot more toxic bc there only remains that kind of people bc of their rules (idk). Internet is very toxic, actually, I suppose it depends on who you are surrounded with


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OmegaKing6000

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Congrats on leaving that hellhole, twitter is one of the most toxic places on the internet and there is too many politics


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Zacznijmy od tego, że z Twittera nikt nie korzysta, oprócz 13-letniej Julki xe/xim furry trans, obrończyń praw zwierząt i członkini "Ostatniego Pokolenia" #HARRIS2024 i #SlavaUkraini, a no i także samych polityków.
Te dwie grupy społeczne to praktycznie jedyne osoby na Twitterze.
Nie oszukujmy się, taka o - Gazeta Wyborcza: jedna z większych gazet, miała średnio na post pięć serduszek.
Dlaczego?
Bo z Twittera nikt nie korzysta po pierwsze, a jak już ktoś korzysta, to nie jest to jego uniwersum.
To samo jest z BlueSky'em czy z innym gównem co teraz powstała.

Nie oszukujmy się, może i jestem ze wsi, może i jestem zaściankowy, ale jednak polityka jest wszędzie, czy chcemy czy nie.

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Nexeno

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Congrats on the selfreflection and improvement! This is what life is about, trying to be a better person every day on this beautiful planet :)


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