HI. I WANNA DIE IG /hyp (vent)

I AM SO JEALOUS OF MY FRIENDS. THEY BOTH HAVE A CRUSH ON THE SAME GIRL AT THE SAME TIME AND THEY GET A NEW CRUSH BOTH EVERY LIKE 2 MONTHS. I HAVEN'T HAD ONE IN A YEAR AND THERE'S USUALLY LIKE 3 YEAR GAPS BETWEEN MY CRUSHED AT LEAST AND IT FEELS SO WEIRD BECAUSE NONE OF THEM ARE LIKE EXTREME IN THE SL8GJTEST. LIKE WDYM I DON'T EVEN WANNA DATE THIS GIRL?!?! I'VE BEEN WAITING YEARS FOR A CRUSH AND I DON'T EVEN WANNA DATE THEM?!?!?! UGHHHH