I feel so weird? Why? [ Ramble :) ]

I feel so weird. To be honest, I get like this a couple times a year (or usually at least once a year) and I have for about 4 (?) years that I can remember. I’m pretty sure that, when I’m like this, I don’t remember the exact feeling after its over which makes me feel like I’m periodically switching into this other person’s life a couple of times a year. Right now it’s hard to even finish a thought in my head and just feels like I’ve got triple the amount of ADHD even though I still take my meds for it everyday. It’s like my whole being vibrates for however many days/weeks to the point where even my vision looks like television static and just under my skin feels… active? 

I don’t know what this is and every time I get it I think ‘Wow this is…new…and interesting…but I don’t hate it?’ then I realise no this is exactly how I felt last time. But (especially in the past) I needed physical evidence of me writing down how I felt at the time to remember that this isn’t some new experience. It’s not like I forget that it happened, I just forget how it actually feels. This makes me feel like the experience is *extra* unique as I compare the past to the present in my head.

Honestly, even writing things like this down is something I only tend to do when I’m in this space (as you can tell by my lack of activity on here). I remember I would usually start making ALOT of lists about anything I was doing or even after I was back to normal I would go onto Google Docs and find crazy essays from these times about my future or random theories I had or random research I did.

I think it might be easier if I was just like this all the time because it’s kind of decent 70% of the time (at least at the start) but afterwards it just feels like the ultimate Post-Concert Depression. 

TBH it’s probably just another part of the ADHD (let me know if you have experiences like this)

   or I could just be radioactive or something lol

Sorry if this was incoherent.

Also I didn’t know what to category to put this in so…