future adults.

i know nobody reads my corny blogs. But here i am overflow with every stupid thoughts on me. Wondering how i got here and why. i know i have been sober for over a year now which makes me really proud of myself. a year, yea that's something alright. I have been in a very deep and paused thought about my future. Isn't it scare having to choose for yourself on what you should do in the future. having to find the right path for yourself, that might also just be the hardest puzzle i've done. i never wanted to be an adult and i always hated them. younger me is going to hate me in a few months for becoming the so call adult, the world wants me to become. i wish i didn't have to worry so much about it but every single person talks about it. CANT they at least warn me about the things i need to know. anyways ill head off now and come back when i have that answer at some point.