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I find myself constantly ovethiking these days. I'm trying to quit smoking but my exes aren't helping. It seems like they're all pissed at me even though we're done and im seeing other people. Men around me are getting more boring by the second, telling me how much they like me without even knowing me. I'm sick of them. I wanted out and tried to find happiness in the bottom of bottles of who knows what type of liquor. It doesn't work but it's fun sometimes. It all sounds so depressig but it's in the past. Right now im so great compared to before. Some people recently told me I just want attentiion but that's not the case, i just want somoene to genuinely try to know me; all of me. The good and the bad and the boring and exciting parts of me. I want to feel understood, much like anyone else i assume. Anyway, pls reccomend songs !! Luv uuu