wtf i'm doing

Bro this year is almost over and i fell in love with a boy at the beginning of the year. We haven't been together for many months but we have still been texting (and something else, but we'll get to that later). 

I'll tell you a little more about him:

-He's a year younger than me

-He lives quite far from me 

-We only see each other about once a month or every other month

How we broke up:

Sooo our relationship ended when he blocked me on snapchat while we were together. Later that day i heard from HIS COUSIN that he has cheated on me. It completely broke me nd i tried to kms. I was told i would get over him but here i am almost at the end of the 2024 and i have shown no sign of healing from him.

I'm still obsessed with him and have serious delusions that he is the purpose of my whole life and the only one created for me. My thoughts revolve only around him and i've been seeing dreams about him for SIX MONTHS STRAIGHT. I don't think this is healthy at all.

I have diagnosed mental health problems that may affect my relationships but i don't know what to do so i'm going to write about this obsession. 

I can't write all the really important details that affect everything, so i don't make the texts too long and i will write more about this later and more cleary so that you can understand what is going on inside my head.

I love you if you read this<3 ask if you want to know anything, kisses