lolol vent again

bro my bf hates me istg i cant do this qithout him ive become so dependednt on hum idk what to do he leaves me on read ALL the time and when he does reply hes super dry and when i try to ask if hes ok he just says "yeah ofc" and like im worried 4 him but also like what if he just found some1 new idk what to do bro. everything is so loud and brihg and idk how to do this rn,,,,, ahhhhhhh help i havent talked to my therapistb abbt anythin srs becuz hes a old judgemental man and he never asks me if im ok and i just cant do this heiokjdhbvgadhjlfkvgahjrbl