MEEEEEEEEE!!!!

I want to allow my sadness to consume me.

let it get so big that it becomes me,

 no longer just a part of my being

 but it is me myself. 

I want it to

 transform me,

 craft me, 

make me like a sad poem

 or tortured artist,

 I want to paint the prettiest pictures 

with the bitter fruit.

Let the rot nourish 

my wisdom,

my existence.

Allow it to bleed

and flourish

into

every aspect of mine.