im delusional

ok so like storytime !!

recently i dated this girl for like about a month-ish until i broke up with her 

[ main reason i broke up with her is because she wasn't that emotionally available & wasn't putting in the same effort i was ]

anyEEways, i lowwwkey want her back BAD. like, today i went to this 1950s-esque diner she works at and she looked fine in her waitress get-up. and im most definitely delusional about this but we had this spotify playlist together, & i saw she added new songs, specifically: Such Small Hands by La Dispute. 

and this made me start, like questioning everything because the song is literally about a relationship failing and still being obsessed. WHICH IS RELEVANT BECAUSE when we broke up she said she still loved me and would always

tldr: im delusional and need to be put down like a sick dog.