boyz nd sisterz (3)

its me again

to talk abt my miserable life again 

so my sister is still acting like she wants my bf, but idc anymore im done feeling. my bf just went home and idk how to feel we used to see each other everyday but now he keeps working he also works with a girl that hit  on him? AND he boasted abt her hitting on him??

wtf.

hes definetley cheating on me i think im gonna go through his phone, he says he loves me but doesnt act like it. yk boys just lie, they lie and they lie and they lie. its like the only thing they do well. IF UR GONNA LIE AT LEAST LIE WELL AT LEAST TRY TO MAKE IT BELIEVABLE.

but i love him and thats what i hate most, feeling, emotions, love.

from a young age the very concept of love disgusts me, its like i cant escape this cursed feeling, again, feeling, feelings. 

FUCK FEELINGS

anyway im writing out this blog on some old ass computer that i found while smoking so at least ik that nicotine truly loves me even tho it hurts me too AT LEAST GETTING LUNG CANCER DOESNT INVOLVE FEELINGS.

yk whatever

you only live once dont you?

so its time for me to be me again

heartless

well thats it byeeeee!! :)

xoxo