> ugh!! so tiring

ugh.. i hate seeing people be happy with their own person you get me??

i dont hate them.. its just making me so jealous that i didnt find my own person yet!!

its not fair at all!! why cant i have someone like theirs? why cant i find my own person?

why cant my own person find me? is there a person for me at all or im just saying that there is one to make myself feel better in my situation? i dont get it..

i just want an unloved loser all to myself!! and why is it so hard to have one?

i dont even think im real anymore!! its so mixed up!! am i even talking to someone right now? are you seeing this?? am i crazy?? THATS THE QUESTION!! I DONT FUCKING KNOW!! 

everyone is sooo judgeful.. they just make me want to kill myself!!

no!! i dont fucking care!! im not a mentally ill teenager im a magical girl who everyone praises!! why cant my imagination become reality? why do i want things that will never happen? I HATE IT SO MUCH UGHH

i dont even think my family even cares for me anymore!! my dads favorite is my sister, our mother just doesnt care and then theres my sister whos an asshole that thinks she can do whatever she wants with me or my things just because shes older than me and goes to college!! 

even my teachers hate me!! its not fair at all! ive heard some say it theirselves!

i just want to wake up! i want everything that happened to never exist! why does my truth matter so much? if its MY truth then i should be able to change it!! 

im tearing up as i write this!! why is it so easy to find problems but so hard to find solutions?

i just want that ''i can fix her'' person to appear and love me!! with my current situation.. the exit seems impossible now..

i hate having to prevent my friends from suicide everyday!! i know they dont love me at all, but i need them!! who can i send my useless memes to if i dont even have someone?

having to beg people just so they talk to me is soo tiring!! but i feel more tired if i dont have someone to talk to

but oh.. maybe im just an useless hoe fooling myself saying that im worthy! not fair..

-KAngel out~ <3

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