i miss my mom

I was actually shaking crying during lunch today. I miss my mom so much.. I haven't been able to hug her in over a year now.

I think I'm forgetting what she sounded like? That scares me, it scares me a lot. I wish she was here, I wish she was brushing my hair, or taking me to Ross, or taking me to plays and musicals.

But she isn't. She is in heaven or wherever.. I hope I can see her again someday, I never got to come out to her, never got to have her as my teacher.