૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡ the aftermath of dropping out

2024. 11. 12 - oversharingggg

-📍chile, south america.

when i dropped out of nursing school i thought that my life wouldn't change much. 

i felt like i was drowning tbh, plus the vibes were so off all the time, most of my classmates were racist & homophobic, there were 136 of us in first year, then one of the girls offed herself, which was a tragedy, but the uni did absolutely nothing. she was being harassed, and they never did anything to help her. i struggled with my depression the entirety of the 2 years i was there, and even if i got great grades & my clinical hours were completed perfectly, i felt like i was one push away from offing myself too. 

i cried every day in the subway, sitting on the floor and not even sobbing. i was exhausted, i traveled a total of 5.5 hours every day to go to school, and it was fr making me loose my mind, waking up at 5 a.m. every day and going to bed at midnight if i was lucky.

so i dropped out. 

and then i started feeling like myself again. 

i lost most of my friends, the 4 shy ones that i had, bc life goes on. i am not drinking anymore, i quit smoking, i started practicing celibacy, i started wanting to live again.

next year i'm applying to: medical technology, with a focus on nuclear medicine & x-ray ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚