11/11/24 ✧໒꒱ They HATE to see a diva be joyous ╯︿╰ (My life as a new college student)

Hi Divas!! This is my first blog post, but there are some things which NEED to be said ~_~ 

You are NOT ready for the absolute drama I fear. 

So im around 3.5 months into MOVING AWAY FROM MY EVIL FAMILY, and attending college in the woods. THERE is SO much to tell. First I love my roommates dearly!! My suitemate is gyaru and shes so sweet, and her roommate is one of my closest friends right now.

Ok, here's where it gets good, around a month into college I went to a silly little glow in the dark club. All fun in games right!? NO ABSOLUTELY NOT UGH. I met the most HOTTEST baddie ever, and they were flirting with me the entire time (┬┬﹏┬┬) we were litterally dancing ALL over eachother it was absolutely crazy. And aftr the rave we started seeing eachother more often and started SEEING EACHOTHER... if ykwim. And we developed a good bond personality wise as well, IS WHAT I THOUGHT!!

LESS THAN A MONTH INTO DATING, this beautiful gorgeous confusing creature of a person BROKE UP WITH ME UGHH, because they felt bad for the ammount of effort they were putting in compared to me and they felt like they needed to make friends in college first before being in a relationship. (they're the one who asked me out (ಥ _ ಥ) sob) WHICH IS SOOOOO VALID yet truely disheartening. So I've been hurtn a lot because of that, I mean I was really really really REALLY starting to love them... but i know it was only a month so I should chill out...

Then the next day Trump won the election... be so fr the way my heart was HURTTTTIN aaaaaaaaa. And then a few days after that it was my birthday (Nov. 9th) Which oml "joyous day!" you yell... NO NOT A JOYOUS DAY, you know why??? They invited all my friends except me to go hangout together in the woods WITHOUT ME UGHH, so shart breaking actually... but they didn't mean any of it to hurt me, it just hurts because of my past experiences of being ripped away from my friends when being broken up with. I just hope I can still have friends when things settle... I really liked those guys...

ALSO my phone has been BROKEN for months now, IM 19 LIVING IN 2024 WITH NO PHONE UGHH, call me y2k i guess... I just wish I could record cute little videos of myself again, but atleast i regained access to my jirai instagram and my spacehey.

ALSO I MET GANDOLF THE OTHER DAY?? I got an ominous invite to the woods... by some friends, and we showed up and people were playing drums?? I honestly thought maybe i was in jumanji or something it was absolutely crazy. BUT THEN Gandolf showed up?? And he was just standing watching the drummers. I WAS FULLY SOBER BTW, it was raining and the drummers stopped playing, then my friends all left because they wanted to follow a group of turkeys they saw. BUT GANDOLF GOT ON STAGE and started a speach "EVERYONE, YOU ARE ALL TOO BUSY STANDING STILL, YOU MUST MOVE YOUR BODIES" he said, and then he started shakin like he was having a seasure?? Craazy times actually, then he taught us yoga until we were rushed out the grass so we didnt get some foot disease.

I know you guys are tired of me already, long as hell blog, but I also am STRUGGLING so hard with being a stem major, like its actually SO much homework, and the food up here sucks.. but at least its been snowing sometimes.

I just want to disappear and become a forest spirit honestly.

i wanna start a band

is it normal for my heart to hurt when i breathe?