12/11/24

12/11/24

helloo, im currently in science class for a double period so two whole periods of science how boringgg anyways its only been a few minutes into school and i wanna go home so bad i hate school so much. my mum is taking a sick day today so she was able to drop me and my brother off to school instead of my grandpa. it was annoying though cause she was rushing me so much i take a little to get ready but its also just generally so hard to get up in the mornings and just in general on days that i don't have school i just sleep all day.

last night an oldish friend messaged me and we had a whole conversation and i kinda told her everything about how i was struggling and she was so nice to me i've never really had anyone i could talk about this with, i don't really have any friends cause its really hard for me to make them expecially since im viewed as weird at my school and i don't think people really like me here just cause im more quieter and im also ugly. i do have two friends but im can't really talk to them about my feelings, they never really ask how im doing we just mess around i don't expect anything i just want to be cared about and i want to be loved so i really do appreciate anyone who has talked with me and been nice to me. i have tried to make online friends but we kind of just talk for one day then we never talk again i hate how bad i am at talking to people. if i get comfortable with you though i do act pretty weird lmao it just takes me some time.

peace out dudes