STOP IT TAROT LADY FROM TIKTOK

Okie so TWO YEARS AND HALF AGO I was in HS and I used to like s guy, bullshit tbh, I had a hard crush on him bc i was having some emotional problems and he gave me some human decency, but tbh he also gave me mixed signals, joking of us like if we were partners, and stuff that i don't want to touch too deeply bc it's been s long time ago, the breaking point was when he was basically trying to me to noticing him while i was flirting with other guy month later and also tried to wave his hand to say hi at me and I ignores him just like he ignored my tries to connect with him and my kind of confession to him when I was angry at him lmfao 

So, I used to dream with him when I liked him, ye, I'm THAT crazy(???), but ofc it stopped when i started to loose interest on him; later like at least a year ago i dreamed with him again and it kinds scared me bc i didn't even remembered him, then i delete everything i had related to him, pictures, the sketches and draws I did for him, even his chat and contact and I forget of him again

My grampa died a year ago, I was close to him so it hit, what it has tod do with the topic? Well, the first time I dreamed with my grampa and how he said goodbye at me (bc we couldn't say goodbye at him) THE DAMN GUY WAS IN THE DREAM AND WE WERE DATING IN THE DREAM AASAAAAA i got extremely mad but ok

I SWEAR I ABSOLUTELY FORGOT ABT HIM UNTIL SOMETHING SUDDENLY JUMP ON LIKE A DREAM OR THIS SHIT, so, some months ago I started to dream with him again, and I got absolutely tired, I have just talked this with s friend and not my besti, 

What does all this has to do with the tarot lady from tiktok? Well, you know the tarot of tiktok, the point it's that the last time (two years ago) when I actually listened to it it kind of happened actually, i didn't even give like to the tiktoks it just constantly appeared and gave a vague description but also with some important and specific points and it happened (it was abt my next relationship) a bit late BUT HAPPENED

Even when it started to appear tiktoks of tarot abt s breakup of my relationship and ignored them absolutely IT HAPPENED AAAAAAAAA, I know it's like s joke for too many but in other stuff I've been noticing that kind of coincidence since s time ago, and lately it's been talking about "your canon event of October/November" and before that it started to appear tiktoks again abt someone returning and all that shit, I had other situationships that meant more but I thought abt this guy specifically when it started to appear a lot those tiktoks

This it's all just like an emotional dump, idk, any suggestions? (Asking if someone it's gonna read it HHAHAHSHAJDJLA)