Im backkk (you all don't rlly care tho :D)

So much has kinda happened, idk how to feel I'm tired and going through mental hell. There is this guy who happens to be my friend and I REALLLYYYYYY like him, like a lot but I know he doesn't like me. HIm not liking me isn't the problem tho, the problem is the fact he acted like he did asked for nudes and then said we'd be better as friends. ITS ESPECIALLY THE WAY HE ASKED FOR NUDES... he told me that it would give him a more clear insight on if he liked me or not, which he said he was confused which I respect. When he said it's best if we remained friends it felt like what happened didn't matter to him so I needed space, yes I made the mistake of blocking him, I know it was wrong and I regret it. He asked one of our mutual friends if she had spoken to me and she said yes why? and he said its because I was ghosting him just because he didn't like me, WHEN I ASKED HIM ON MULTIPLE OCCASIONS IF HE LIKED ME AND HE TOLD ME HE WAS CONFUSED, but it's whatever I guess, I would tell him I wouldn't be upset if he was honest but idk, he also told my other friend he didn't because he was scared I was going to off myself, for one I'm not that desperate but I guess that's a valid concern. I reconnected with him and I told him and it seemed he was trying to cut me off idk, I don't want that he's a great friend and he means a lot. We remained friends but he seemed hesitant, now he's distant, it hurts so much idk what to do. But I know it would hurt more if we never spoke again.

I'd appreciate others perspectives or views, that'd help. If not, thanks for listening anywayysss

HOPE YOU ARE ALL OKAYYYS :3

Nov 10,2024