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I don't know what to do, I want to let him go and stop being "friends" with him even though he ended our relationship, but some part of me wants to feel his love again. I don't know if i miss the memories or him, don't get me wrong, he loved me and treated me right but, he just didn't understand i was uncomfortable with his girl friend, i kept shutting down and getting mad every time they talked in class, maybe some of this is on me since I didn't know how to communicate how i felt then, that tore us apart somewhat. I told him how I felt and how I had this gut feeling that her intentions were bad and he said he understood yet he was willing to let me go cause he didn't want to stop being friends with her apparently because they grew up riding the same bus and their family knows each other. I understand that they are friends but she always gets close to him and acts like a pick me every time he's near. He now just wants to be friends and build our relationship until we are ready to try again. I'm happy because I can focus on myself now and grow mentally without depending on him but sometimes I miss feeling his love again. I catch myself getting mad when they are talking in class and Shes giggling with him even though me and him aren't together. I need to stop getting mad over the little things, its just that she gets in my head and She's known as the schools hoe and she tried messing with his brother and my cousin. I just want her gone and I want him back. I miss him and I know I shouldn't miss the person who done me wrong. Every time she got close to him he never addressed it, I told him about boundaries and he told her (I think) and she crossed them continuously. Maybe I should have confronted her about it and this all would have never happened. I let her get in my head, the doubts of them talking being my back got to me but I feel like I was right, the day I skipped school after he broke up with me they walked in the hall and she sat in my spot next to him and he never said anything. Am i overthinking it and did i ruin this?


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I don't really understand your situation, but I would reccomend u 2 get your mind off of that.
Thinking ab what it could have been or what you could do to cahnge everything.
Stop blaming yourself or others, seek a way to get better instead.
If you happen 2 know spanish, here's a book that I would reccomend!

(https://pdfcoffee.com/como-romper-su-adiccion-a-una-persona-howard-m-halpern-4-pdf-free.html)


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I'm currently getting back into taking care of myself and I totally agree I need to stop with the "what if's". I'm surrounding myself with friends to keep my mind off of it but its just the fact I see them everywhere together now, I'm trying to accept that were just "friends" now or whatever we are. I love you for the advice and I hope your doing good x.

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