Eternal Loneliness

im so isolated that now whenever i go out in public, i get incredibly anxious and nervous, especially with the social rules i have to follow IRL rather than online which people are, well, sometimes, kinder, and IRL there's also much more noise which can be overstimulating. But i keep asking my parents to bring me out with them whenever they go out so maybe i can get more used to people and maybe i will stop being so anxious and nervous around people other than my family (Which i see every day) .... also cuz.... i need to find a job and... that requires for me to be good with people and socializing and that stuff. 

Life is so hard :/