growing pains.

Nobody told me growing pains last this long. Feels like everyone I know is growing up or going down. There's probably a future ahead of me that I'm too blind to see. I'm just a once cute and bright child in the discarded body of a hasbeen. Can't wait to hit rock bottom so I know it can't get any worse. I think I'm just procrastinating on beginning to live my life. The childhood that I've never had is ending and I'm holding its barely alive body in my hands. So much for "keeping my inner child alive".