mental health in uni

its actually insane how hard college hs been already... i mean ive never been one to particularly enjoy school despite usually doing well, but my god (˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) 

i was already thinking of trying online school but im an honors student and i wnna do well... but ive been struggling so badly with my mental health, senior year of high school was so difficult for me i felt like i barly graduated, just because of my absences..

but ive been doing my best to excel in college, despite still having that dissociation and emptiness, feeling isolated... oh well

any thoughts? im on medication but is anyone else just struggling? its mostly that my classes grade attendance and for some reason i cant stand to be around people.