Diary, entry 1

To begin with, it's just my thoughts out loud, okay?

So, today is 10/11.24, it's amazing that this year is already coming to an end.. Recently, by the way, I had a birthday!! Isn't it cute? Like, I celebrated it for the first time.. Of course, not like in the YouTube video or Tik Tok, but it was a kind of lamp ((, this, as for me, is much more expensive but any kind of gifts 🎁, but unfortunately, today the day did not start well :(

because I was crying, I was having nightmares again, it's not cool, the feeling of depression and the fact that I was messing up again and only messing up followed me, but thank God I talked to my boyfriend, he supported me and helped me cope with it, yes, disgusting thoughts were in my head, but his words They were louder.. I don't know how to describe it on the keyboard, but it's comparable to an alarm that you'll hear even with headphones on :), he advised me to adjust my regime so that the body gets enough sleep and can cope with it, and + I'll just feel better than falling asleep with him in a dс call Oh, and I'm also struggling with self-esteem!! I started to put myself on Ava, the feeling that something is wrong with me gradually goes away, especially when I get compliments >0<